love is beautiful when we put our heart into it..

8 oct 2009

2009-10-09T02:08:00.002+08:00

Back at my mum's place..alhamdulilah ol getting better but i just needed to get a laptop as i dun wanna use my step's stuffs...lol...okay....this week,tough week..monday,signs of sickness..flu and sore throat..damn...once got sore throat,confirm fever and i was right...the next day,tues,was class raya outing..my sickness worsen..i still carry on with the outing as i dun wanna disappoint my frens and i tried my best to smile....afternoon comes and im okay...my energy went dwn wen it comes to night and i was really weak..got home at 1 and rest..
Wednesday,went to sch fer a rehearsal and i couldnt sing as ive lost my voice..the cough is killing me...haiz..
Thursday comes and i went to watch sorority row with seri sam joseph and jason..was scary and parts not suitable fer the younger ones..lol..nut i did have fun even tho im weak..this is by far the worse feeling ive got..anyway,we went to marina to hang out and they just wanna see me smile...joseph even knew if i was faking it ornot..wat they want was just me getting well and be myself...im trying hard here guys and i appreciate all the help that u guys have been giving me...had some true and dare and i just love the dare...u ppl know abt it so i dun wanna elaborate..i love wen i got dare..hehe...till nw i cannot forget...OMG!!!! haha..im still feeling weak tho but i hope i have the strength to get back to sch..
My love life officially ends today..u need not need to say out face to face..all i wanted was ur honesty..but since u take this silently and wen i found out the truth,im totally disappointed in you...but its alright..i have frens family who is always there giving me support..just so u know,im sick all because of u and u did even gave a f***ing damn care abt me...haha...its alright...im a strong girl i myself know and im just not gonna let any guy to pull me down..well if ure reading this then i hope ure happy fer wat u did okay...im gonna be cool and we will remain as frens...we need to wrk together as a class rep n tresurer...haha...im professional in this and i dun get my personal life into my sch life..stay cool alright and i wish all the best with the girl of ur dream...i may be quiet but im proud to say that i have the softest heart,a understanding matured young lady and a strong girl who dun need man to be happy..Allah S.W.T yg menentukn segalanya..
ppl,love is still beautiful..just find the right one fer u..ive found one but he is just not into me so i cnnt do anything...haha..
keep on smiling ok...

Lotsa <3,
SuFy.. :)

lost in my own world...

2009-10-05T02:28:00.002+08:00

Its been so long since i blog..and things happen so fast..without me knowing its the last week of holidays already...well firstly i'll talk abt raya..this year alhamdulilah ive reunite with my family and we are doing great...raya this year is not as fun n was kinda quiet...but was okay la..
Frens,have been missing them alot and hope to get to sch asap..
Myself??? hmm,have not been well....have not been eating n sleeping well..im lovesick right now...miss him so much..hope i could have the strength to get back to sch..lost weight..haiz...love is really beautiful..i love my love life right now n i nvr wan to end this..if this were to end then im putting my love life on hold..i cant find any other guyh tat is as great as u dear and i hope u could give us a chance..i love u so much n missing u so badly these holidays..
Passion fer modeling is growing day by day..wanna make it big as a petite model..beauty shots,covergirl and campaigns is wat im going for..hee..well,i've always wanna wear contact lenses n finally i've brought it at toa payoh accompanied by seri,my best pal who always support me during my up n downs..not forgetting the rest too...hehe..its nice but was a torture wearing it fer the first time n i just cant stop looking at the mirror...hehe...thx seri... lols..
I'm staying with my mumnow and cannot go online as often but i will try...sch reopens i promise myself to work hard n get good grades...got a 1.5 fer this semester n its not great..during nitec my gpa was at 3.5 and nvr below 3.0...oni the first sem i got 2.5 but now it have drop so bad...i even got myself 4.0 during 2nd sem of nitec...dunnoe wats wrg here but i will work harder...
got to go for now...
i still believe that love is beautiful n i love u forever firman...
EAST OR WEST,CINTA FIRMAN AND SUFY IS THE BEST...

Lotsa <3,
Sophie Rahim.. :)

continuation of ysterdy's post..hehe..

2009-09-14T19:25:00.002+08:00

Where do i start here..erm, okay..its hari raya preparation week...ive been busy doing cleaning up of all the houses..hehe..fun tho its tiring..went shopping and all with my grandma..this year is kinda last min for me and family..we are in a financial situation and shopping for new stuffs have not yet started..it saddens me here but i know there is alot of other unfortunate families out there who is suffering more than i do..im used to being like this and leading this kinda simple life and i definitely learn alot frm it...

Today did some rearrangement of stuffs and yea..all done up already...will be having my break fast tmr with the light of my life..my peeps whom i love so much!! we having our dinner at KTM and i cant wait to meet up with them...miss them so much especially seri,jojo sam n not forgetting my sweetheart..been away frm him these days but i perfectly understand that he is busy wrking till late in the morning..i love him so much and gonna give him a massive hug tmr after breakfast!!!

Modelling is my passion..i would love to be working in this industry..wanna meet tyra banks if i can..she's so perfect in my eyes..i learn alot frm her antm and if there ever is a sntm(s'pore next top model),i would for sure sign up..petite models cannot do the runway but they can do the commercial,face up,high fashion and some other..only GOD knows how badly i wan to do this..will sign up for any opportunity that come by and b4 i end sch,i definitely wanna burn off the fats in my thigh..im feeling a little lighter here durng the fasting month and i am sure to continue to not eat that much..hehe..

till here den..will write in tmr..

LOVE THE ONE WHO LOVES YOU RATHER THAN LOVING THE ONE WHO DOESNT LOVE YOU..IT WILL BE PERFECT IF BOTH WOULD LOVE EACH OTHER SO MUCH.. :)

Lotsa <3,

SuFy.. :P

Preparing for HARI RAYA...

2009-09-13T22:58:00.002+08:00

Sorry for not updating here...been busy after exams..hehe..after AC paper,im free..not to worry of anything here..well maybe just the results den..hehe..but im confident tat i can make it... :)

My last few days have been busy cleaning up houses...frm my mum's hse,to my grandma house and now since my mak long have gone back to indonesia,its my turn to clean my aunt house...hehe..

alamak,i gtg la...aiyo...will update tmr night den...hehe...

missing ol my peeps here especially sayang!!!!

Lotsa <3,

SuFy.. :)

exam week!!!

2009-09-09T20:24:00.002+08:00

Its exam week ppl... gosh,how time pass real fast..and next week hari raya already..this year the time really is fast yarh..hmm,anyway..Ic paper was kinda alright..have confidence in passing there..hope that tmr AC paper will not be that tough..gona be studying till late later.. nothing really much this week tho..clean up the room just now and its super clean.. hehe.. had nasi lemak for break fast but still cannot fast..

missing my dear as usual and missing my peeps already coz holidays are coming soon...so bored at home as i cannot watch singapore idol...hope to catch the result show later...hehe..gonna wake up at 5 tmr and relax myelf for the paper..hehe..thats kinda early right..well,i dun like to rush therefore being extremely early is not that bad..hehe..well,i really have nothiing much to say here just wishing all of my peeps good luck and all the beat for tmr AC paper...last test for the whole semester ..hehe..

till here den..

love is beautiful...

To love is one thing,to be loved is another..to be loved by the one we love is EVERYTHING..i love u sayang... :)

Lotsa <3,

SuFy... :)

my weekend...

2009-09-06T21:53:00.002+08:00

Saturday,no plan for the day..I woke up at 9 just to sent my naughty sister to the polyclinic..She had high fever,cough,flu..disturb my sleep only..haha..but its okay..it was my responsibility to takecare of her tho..anyway, after that,went back home and get the groceries..din really do much today..was kinda bored..i wanna study but haven get in the mood yet..but will be doing so tonight and tmr..my study habits are really weird..i cannot study like 1 month ahead but i need like 1 to 2 days to cover it all..thats my style..hmm..

Miss my darling alot here..sometimes,fighting do tend to make us closer and tend to make the feeling of missing each other stronger..i sure dun wanna fight as i love him so much that it hurt seeing him sad..but somethings are just unpreventable..

Sunday,cannot fast..damn..menses come and as usual,stomach cramps and i totally dun like the feeling...went to my grandma house to accompany her as she is alone..pity her there..she then ask me to buy some stuffs and ya breakfast with her..had 'dadeh strawberry' and it was super nice..had burger ramli too..very nice..hehe..i did some washing and then wait till she end her prayers before going home..since holidays are coming,i wanna clean up her house for her..alot of dust and i understand that she's weak..i will be going there soon to clean up for her..

Anyway, my sayang was all alone at home..he woke up and we chat for awhile before he head to work..gosh,im loving him more each day and only god knws how badly i wanna spent time with him..will be waiting for him later and i do hope i can keep my eyes awake till..

Till here then..study hard for exams okay..

Believe in love.. its wonderful.. :)

Lotsa <3,

SuFy.. :)

updating dis week of mine frm 2 sept till today,5 sept..

2009-09-04T20:08:00.002+08:00

Been a busy,boring day for me..now thats weird right coz wen ure busy,u shouldnt be bored..haha..so dis is hw my week goes..no school on tues,since its holidays for the teachers..so i decided to study at woodlands library..the plan was to go with my dear but he was tired and so we met for break fast..i studied IC lecture 7 to 15..6 hours in the library was good but my butt hurts alot there..i wasnt feeling that well already..coughing all the way..met my sayang and we break fast at long john silver..the pasar malam wasnt that great n to be honest,woodland was BORING..haha..Anyway,we went to sit in front of the civic centre and just chat..ws a good feeling to have my closest time with my dear since we already break fast..hehe..miss those moments tho..we head home at ard 10 and i reach home at 12am..kinda late already..but i did enjoy the time with him..i love u baby..

wednesday come and i wasnt feeling that well since i had my pre dawn meal..tot of not coming to school but i remembered about the presentation and make my way to school..was coughing,sneezing and i just couldnt take it..lotsa ppl was late including mr sim..the funny thing is about us having to told seri about the presentation since she did not come on monday..it goes like this..i din went online and so i assume sam would have told seri..sam then tot i o syawal would have told her and in the end,she dunnoe as no one told her..hehe..sorry there seri.. :)anyway,i wasnt myself half of the day and its only after ruhaida's class that i felt better..somethings happen but i guess im keeping it to myself.. :( head to pasir ris as the next day we have to come to school at 8! and so i went to sleep at cuya's sister house..was super fast wen i got home and we head out to buy things to eat..i break my fast in school as i vomited and couldnt take it.. wasted!!! anyway, we had nasi lemak and we watch SINGPORE IDOL together..my fav contestant was FARHAN SHAH!!! He sang my fav song of jonas brothers and he look sweet with sexy lips but FOR SURE my hubby's much more sexier.. hehe..he got to the top 12 n im sure to vote!! sadly jannah n nurul din make it and they are amg the best..i felt that this year,they cut dwn the numbers of malays as i tink they wan a chinese to win but i dun see a winner there yet..will be looking forward for SG every wed then..i plated cuya's hair again and was much more organised and nicer..slept at 2 and was missing my dear everyday.. :(

Thursday,woke up at 6.45 to get ready for school and was a quick one to school..is great to be living near the school.. :)

we went to pasir laba camp for a army open house..was a nice trip but was freaking hot and i felt thirsty for the first time in this fasting month..but did manage to control tho..heading back to jurong after break fast and cuya's BF sent me..i sat at the back of the lorry and it was great..the wind and all..got home,wash up,sleep.. very tiring...

Friday,today,lotsa things happen here and i really dun wish to talk it out here..hehe...some things is better to be not told to people yar..anyway,im sorry seri and sam for not joining the shop..really sory k..i got home,feels better,break fast n rest...check my facebook n lotsa things there..hehe..well..i'll end here...nothting much to say already..

NEXT WEEK EXAMS PPL...DO STUDY HARD AND I WISH U ALL THE BEST!!!!

Love is just BEAUTIFUL..And i love u firman adnan.. muackz...no matter wat happen,we'll always be together.. :)

Lotsa <3,

SuFy.. :)

Lonely monday..

2009-09-01T05:00:00.002+08:00

Its teacher's day and i wish all teachers a very happy teacher's day..Its half day at school today and we start off with tutorial and going thru of test paper 2 for IC followed by PE..Seri's not in school as she's sick and due to that,im left with sam,farah n the guys..I fail again for IC..12 over 30..the paper was kinda easy and i did some careless mistakes that i know i wouldnt be repeating during the final exam..amg my clicks,pok got the top scorer of the class..he may seems like a person who does not study but in total fact,he studied as he's aiming for the polys..farah got 3rd in class..syawal,sam n sayang passed..me,seri,aizzul and joseph all got 12..im sure gonna work harder here..

After IC,we went for PE and as usual most of us din bring..mr chan just kept quiet but we all know he's not happy..we play tennis and it was fun..i played until i sweat badly that the polo t was wet at the back..it was indeed a fun game and i would love to play it during every PE..was kinda bored tho as both of my bestest pal is were not there..sam went back to visit her secondary school right after lecture ends..n since seri's not here,i was feeling a little bored..hehe..but the guys did entertain me la..hee..

After jojo n aizzul wash up,we went home..it was super early and its like 1pm..so instead of heading straight home,i went with aizzul n joseph to take 969 all the way to woodlands interchange..was indeed my first time taking tat bus..hehe..I reach woodlands ard 3 plus i guess and then i took 187 to boon lay interchange..was fun riding buses u know..kills time but my butt hurts lor..i reach home at ard 4 and so it took me 3 hrs to get hm taking bus wen i could just take the mrt and reach 2 hrs earlier..hehe..was great and i dont mind so ya..

I got home,bath and without me knowing myself,i doze off..woke up at 6.45,nearly time for break fast..hehe..i had singgang,sotong masak hitam,telur mate lembu and sambal belachan which is a must..along with green tea..im having a bad cough here and it really hurts..hope to get the throat well soon..After break fast, i went to tidy and collate all of my notes and practical paper..did some summarization and gonna study today,1 sept 09 at woodlands library..further away frm my estate..with my dear but of coz we'll not be studying together as i dun wish to give him false info and therefore,we are going there together but its just studying on our own..gonna break fast with him and how i miss him adn miss 'us' alot..holidays are approaching and its gonna be 6 weeks long..how am i to go thru the days without being close to him i wonder..all i know is that i love him so uch that it really hurts my heart wen we are apart..

till here den..

Believe in love as much as i believe in it..

Its wonderful & beautiful..

Lotsa <3,

SuFy.. :)

boring weekend.. :(

2009-08-30T12:28:00.004+08:00

Saturday,ive got no plans..stay at home and just watching tv..my siblings have went home to spent time with my mum as she misses them..And so the house is silent..I woke up at 10..Bath and follow my aunt to the market to get the groceries..The menu for break fast are ikan goreng,soup bayam,chicken wings and air asam..fuhh..very nice..hehe..on top of that, my mak long make apam and its so nice that i finish it all..my stomach is full but not fill of rice but full of apam..hehe..

Den,before breaking of fast,my mum called..she told me that my siblings are on the way there as a fight just happen at home..as usual is my step father findings fault with them..and the sad thing is that they just went back the night before..i was super sad and tears flow out..i couldnt accept that my siblings are suffering from this..and i pity my mum for having to go thru all of this..that house belong to my mum and that stupid step father has NO RIGHTS to shove them away..It hurts my heart even more wen my sister told me that the step father is harsh to my mum..I really hate him..hate him to the core..Having him to enter our live is like a nightmare..He is so into discipline wen he himself is not disciplined..He was angry that my siblings did not salam him and did not 'jempot' him to eat..WTH?!?! u Are just a step father for goodness sake and our own biological father does not even treat us this way..Ive been suffering alot in that house which was why i decide to run off..My mum and siblings are having a hard time there..even tho the house is full with branded stuffs, we are not allow to use it..Why? coz its his money..and in fact,its not his money..its the money the insurance gave him to last him before he have his last breath..He's having lung cancer and it have been close to two years and its in stage 5..the last stage..All of his frens he met in the hospital have gone and he is still here..i feel that god is good enuf to let him repent which is why is life is lengthen..but instead of doing good,he is making my family suffer..which is why i won't attend to his funeral and i won't shed a tear..Thruout my 19 years of living in this world,ive never hated a person this bad..well of coz i will forgive but i will never ever forget!!!!!!!

Well..,that's a simple description of my life since i was in sec 2..No one really knew what i was going thru as ive been smiling and not showing the sadness i have for the pass 5 years of my life..Other children are having fun with their family..picnics,holidays..but my family?? haiz..i'll just leave it to Allah and praying that happiness will come even if its just for awhile..

I just hope to be happy and lead a happy life..definitly there's a lot instore for me in the next 60 years of my life..

There's school tmr and i really am looking forward for it..im missing all of my peeps and they are the ones that have brought a little light in my life ever since we knew each other for the last 4 months..im very fortunate to have them here..And as for my sayang, the happiness and joy u have given me is something that i tresure alot..I see u as my angel that have been send frm high above to shower me with ur love and make me the happier person i am right now..u were there wen im down,u were there wen i needed advice and u are always there for me..i thank u for that and i really hope we could get together as one and built a family of our own..im hoping to have my dream family with u baby..insyaAllah..i love u too much that its hard to let go..love u too much that word cant explain and im dying to be with u forever.. loving u is a must and i will continue to love u till the end of the world.. thanks for everything my love..

Believe in love as its beautiful..

Lotsa <3,

SuFy.. :)

I LOVE FIRMAN ADNAN..

I LOVE SORAYA ABD MJD(SAM)

I LOVE SERI HIDAYU OSMAN

I LOVE SOFIA HISHAMMUDIN

I LOVE AIZZUL AZIIM

I LOVE POK CHUAN

I LOVE SYAWAL MASRON

I LOVE FARAHZIANA ZULKIPLEE

I LOVE JOSEPH JOSHUA

I LOVE ALLAH... :)

28 aug... ???

2009-08-28T21:28:00.002+08:00

AC test today at 10..reach school at 10.10..saw joseph and aizzul in the same bus..early morning disturb me liao..lol...its okay...I din sleep after breakfast as i wanna continue on studying..kinda sleepy tho..Sayang was late again..he reach close to 10.30..sayang,u stay so near, dun late2 lar..heehhee..The AC test was hard..lotsa theory indeed and i couldnt do it..confirm 100% i will fail as i leave a number of blanks..This time round,IC test 2 is easier than AC test 2..I hope for exam,i can do well..really hope so.. :)

We end at 11 plus and head to biz blk to do our surveys for the teachers..After which we 'lepak' at the forum and chat..something happen to seri n firman..was a small misunderstanding tho and i hope they are feeling better now...Firman is having his percussion as usual..pok having his aqua club..joseph is haing his tennis..me,aizzul,seri and sam head off at 2.30..aizzul went home and the three ladies make their way to orchard ION to find sam's heels and pumps..

Sam bought black heels tat cost 29.95..2 pumps,one purple n one colourful with lotsa green tat cost 2 for 25..kinda cheap tho..its at rubi's shop..hehe..seri n i bought wristband..seri got green colour which says: go green..boring qoute..hehehe..i bought a hot pink wristband tat says : follow your heart <3>

I reach home at 6.45 and gets ready for breaking of fast..My siblings went home today but will be coming back on sunday..hmm...after sending them to the bustop,i went home and change the case for my bed and all of the pillows...i suddenly hit my head on a wooden rack that is place on top of the bed and it hurts!!!!!! Got one baluku there..aiyo2..I miss my sayang..not close to him for this few days due to fasting,his late wrking schedule,limited time in school...miss his hugs,his kisses alot..is trying to hold on here..i guess,i'll be playing games on facebook and then get to bed after chatting with hubby..tmr is a new weekend adn its already a week since we fast.. :)

Love is wonderful..

26-aug & 27-aug

2009-08-27T20:04:00.003+08:00

It's a wednesday today and school starts at 12..We are having our last phase test for AC and its on pycnometer..It was indeed a straight forward and easy test..But i did a silly mistake..Instead of pouring the solution into the pycnometer using the filter funnel, i go and pipette out 50ml of the solution..haiyo..but the rest went smoothly..will be having our last theory class test for AC on fri and i hope i can do well...

Nothing much happen today..after phase test we had our IC lecture cum tutorial..and we went hm as its kinda late..everyday,dis is our routine..very bored...and im even more bored at home..

Sayang have start work and is working frm 7 to 1am today and how i miss him so badly.. love u alot baby and i hope u can manage ur work and school k..i'll always support u frm behind..till here den..

It's a thursday..and that is the day where i have no school..I woke up at 10 and help out in the cleaning of the house..After which i went to buy stuffs for break fast..At ard 3 i went to send some stuffs for my grandma..Talk with her for awhile and den went to the bank to deposit $ for my aunt and also updating the bank book..i went to buy some fruits and den head back home..reach home close to 6 and i help a little in setting up the table..I had rice,long beans,sambal egg and bubble tea..gonna study for tmr test later and im missing my frens n my sayang badly here..due to the stuffs i had to do, i din follow seri n sam to geylang..how sad..sorry k guys..and i thank u for ur understanding..love u two..i guess i'll end here den..feel so bored and my phone is silent ol day.. :(

Love is beautiful when u believe..

Lotsa <3,

SuFy.. :)

happy day..

2009-08-25T21:15:00.009+08:00

Sayang came back to school today and i waited for him outside the school gate..He arive with sam at 9.05..was kinda late actually..hehe..anyway,i miss him alot n seeing him today already make me happier than ysterdy..We had our really last practical with mr tan..my group combined with joseph's group and as usual,he'll make me laugh..lol..

We ended the practical at 11.30 and head towards lecture theatre to wait outside..Ms joyce was having class with the biotech students..and so she left at 12..Sam n firman had a one on one battle in dancing again and sam was awesome..i love to see her moves..very cute too...lulu n ira joined in the fun as well..

We got to get in the theatre hall as the door wasnt close..at least to get air-con..hehe..we are not suppose to do that actually..Anyway,we had a lot of fun in the hall..joseph has a idea for us to be like acting in a drama..dealing with ghosts,dealing with emperor..wat shit all that la..we had fun n he commented that we can go in drama club already...hehe...very very fun n funny too...the hall was in total darkness and that make it more fun...

Ms joyce came in and was shocked to find us in there before she do...well,she din scold but just advise us not to do that in the near future..we had revision today..after that we hang ard at forum until 4 plus..joseph n firman sleep..aizzul went off first..i was just looking at my sayang..n sam is busy doing plete(i dunno hw to spell) to seri's hair...see the pic ltr ya..my sayang look tired..he slept in class n at forum..ask him go home,he dun wan..aiyo..oh ya, before i forgot,he sang me the song 'lelaki ini' in class just now..i cried a little..just feel so lucky that i've found him here..love him so so so much hat words cant explain..!! I'll upload the pictures i took of them here alright..tmr got AC phase test 2..on pycnometer..gonna be easy i guess..hehe..well,im watching jihan now..after dis gonna study n maybe chat alittle with my hubby..miss him..till here..

Sufliyyati Binte Abdul Rahim loves Mohammad Firman Bin Adnan for eternity..

BELIEVE IN LOVE AS IT IS BEAUTIFUL.. :)

LoTsA <3,

SuFy.. :p

24-aug

2009-08-24T21:03:00.010+08:00

sam n jojo.. :)

jojo solo.. he's a nice guy.. :)

Sam solo...hehe..tats sofia's thumb up..hehe.. sam cute lar... :)

syawal n qamarul playing PSP.. challenging each other..hha.. :)

aizzul busy with hp..see how boring it is today..all doing their stuffs... :)

seri hidayu sleeping with aizzul's shirt coz of the smell..nice..heheh... ehem2.. :) jojo n sam..how sweet... :)

Today is the 3rd day of fasting and the first day of school..was looking forward for it..We had theory test 2 on IC..was kinda straight forward as there is no reactivities and just naming of compounds..My sayang got migraine today and did not come to school..oh i miss him alot..we had our PE but most of the malay did not play..haiz..was very boring..i help joseph to do his chart and we finished it today..after PE,we slack at the stadium..some was sleeping n some play PSP..

We had our last practical today with mr sim on iodine n fehling test..haha..was a short n fun experiment..i miss sayang alot today..the class seems too quiet..i love him alot now and being away from him makes my heart hurts like million of knives piercing thru it..sayang,i love u alot and i dun ever wanna lose u k..

My fasting turns out wells today,alhamdulilah..tmr we'll be ending early and i bet its gonna be a boring day again..well,i'll put up the pictures i took of them at the stadium and lets see hw cute all of them are..love u guys..

Something happen today after school but i dun wish t talk about it as it is about other ppl's relationship problem..i'll leave u guys with some piece of my mind..

In a relationship,understanding between one another is the main thing..If one is sick n dun wish to talk,the other one have to understand n respect..giving each other space of its own is also important..we cannot have him/her all to ourself adn we should give them space for their own time..For the girls,please stay strong in dealing with problems in ur relationship as if we show to the guys that we are weak, we will be bullied and they'll make us weaker..For the boys, do takecare of the girl's feelings n dun do stuffs that hurt them badly..

Alhamdulilah my relationship with sayang is going on smoothly..he has start working and i do hope he'll know how to manage his time and take care of his health..sufy <3>

Have a great night everyone.. love is beautiful when u believe... :)

Lotsa <3,

SuFy.. :)

updating my day on 22-aug

2009-08-24T20:37:00.002+08:00

Today is the starting of fasting..i love fasting month as it keeps us calm n keeps us away from syaitan n nearer to Allah by doing the things he order us to do like praying 5 times a day, no speaking of vulgarities and not doing the bad n wrong stuffs..i love fasting also cause it help me control my weight n my eating habits..hehe..the month of fasting also indicate that hari raya is coming! This year's raya will be a different environment for me..I'm away from my family due to some reason..i miss my family alot tho...

Anyway,today me,seri aizzul,firman,joscelin n her baby went to the library at woodlands to do our project given by mr sim about organic chemistry..I met seri,joscelin n her baby at 11 while aizzul n firman is late..haha..i wore tudung for the first time in front of my ITE frens..got good compliments from them..hehe..i love wearing tudung n i just feel right..well,right now im not that ready to wear it but i've made a promise to myself that i will wear it after i had my first child..long way to go huh...hehe...its okay to plan early.. :)

Since seri was alone, we decided to combine our answers and do at mahjong paper differently..in the meanwhile seri calls aizzul n firman till get thru..haha..she called aizzul n luckily he stay in woodlands...she try calling firman but no answer till she call his house..i myself am afraid to call as his mother is kinda fierce..hehe..anyway,seri gave him 32 missed call n on the 33rd call,he finally pick up n get ready to come down..we did the notes first n after which we transfer to mahjong paper..jos's baby help our grp to do the boxes..after we done our boxes, firman's group is still discussing about the drawing..we end up getting confused by our own drawing n so we decided to follow how firman's group did..hehe..i continue dis thing on sun at seri's house lor...

Anyway, i went home and found out that my mak long from indonesia come to help us tidy up the house..having her here is great as she helps us alot..That night,my mum called and told me that she is sending my sister and brother to stay here..im sad that my family is this way and im determine to make our life better without my step father in our life..he is the cause of everything..for my 19 years of staying in ths world,ive NEVER HATED A PERSON THIS BAD..aiyo..

Had my break fast,chat n did nothing..i miss my dear alot..even tho we just met..hehe..but luckily tmr meeting him again at seri's house..

till here..

Lotsa <3,

SuFy.. :)

updating my day on 21-aug

2009-08-24T20:26:00.002+08:00

Sorry for not been writing for the last 3 days..have been busy thruout the weekend...anyway,on friday is a very short n boring day in school...we had lecture and then we went for lunch..joseph went back after eating with his cousin..sam went to her make up class and left with me, sayang,aizzul and seri...hehe..was kinda boring so we decided to play with cards again like what we did the day before..was really fun and for the first time,i hold the card just to play the fortune thingy..but of coz it just for fun n i dun believe in it..

I went back with seri as aizzul took the bus..n my sayang got his percussion..fasting month is arriving and i knew i could not be that close with my dear..gonna miss all the hugs n kisses..have to be strong..hmm..well,i got home and rest and chat with my cousin..nothing much happen today tho..very plain... hehe..

Lotsa <3,

SuFy.. :)

fun day i had.. :)

2009-08-20T23:02:00.002+08:00

Spent time with seri,sam,sofia and sayang today..had to wake up early to clean the house..i woke up at 8 and rush to do housework while playing bouncing balls in facebook!! gosh i am kinda addicted to it already..hehe..after doing the stuffs,seri called n told me my sayang still hvn wake up..so i just told her to keep trying..in the meanwhile,i get myself done up..i tot i was late but my sayang was even late and so i travel to tampines and we went to bugis together..met aizzul n helmi bro along the way..so here is how our outing went...the last thurs before fasting... :)

We had our late lunch at zam zam..seri n sofia had chicken murtabak while sam n firman had mutton murtabak..i had bee hoon goreng...was super nice..we spent 20 dollars on everthing including drinks...was kinda worth it..After eating we went ard aimlessly not knowing wat to do..They went to have their smoke and me n seri take photos using sofia's camera...haha..was fun den.. as usual,will upload in facebook...They den decided to play with helium and so each of them bought balloon for themself that cost 1 dollar each..i din buy as im not interested but am interested in hearing their voices change..hehe..Sam was having so much fun tat she bought 2 more balloon to be played at the esplanade later on..Sofia went sentosa with lulu n ira and so we was separted frm her..so left with the four of us as usual and we had our time at esplanade.. :) my fav place..

Sam had her 'CORNPOP'!!! hehe..and we sat by the bay..we play with the poker cards on diff stuffs that is weird but some were very true..ws very fun playing that game and we should try to play it tmr...so fun...hehe..firman was a little late..he need to be back home by 7 but we left ny 6.50..all thanks to the card playing..dis happen to seri too wen she was late for her job interview due to playing with UNO..lol..anyway, sam found out that she has two guys in her mind...oh my, who could that be huh...n she kept talking bout it till we r in the mrt n till seri is bored over it..Since there was no one at home,i decided to take bus 187 from wdlands to get to boonlay inter n the bus ride took 1 hr..was kinda fast n i slept all the way...

Im tired and sleepy now n m sure goin to tune in after blogging..i still miss my baby boy..i love u so much dear and missing u every single day..fasting is coming...that is the time for me to lose some weight..hehe..

Believe in love everyone n have a great nite..

Lotsa <3,

SuFy.. :)

19 aug 09.. another day in school.. :)

2009-08-19T22:32:00.002+08:00

School starts at 12 today n i was super tired..Din feel like going to school but i did went to school as the practical is important for test nxt week..haiyo..got 3 tests sia..alamak...hmm....anyway, we learn about pycnometer today..was a really small n cute apparatus there..we did 20%,40%,80% of IPA and did the weighing to find out the volume..was a fun n easy experiment.. :) joscelin n me was doing everything..sham n zul alamak,i dunno wat to say about them..but luckily joscelin darling is with me..i spill the IPA on the table,on my labcoat,jeans n shoe..all thanks to sham for putting it there without informing me..haiz...n my eyes is puffy today..cnnot open as wide as it use to be..haha..

Pract end and as usual we went to cafe 3 to have some bite..everyone had nasi goreng..while me n sayang had beehoon..After eating,me and sayang went to take notes n i went to buy some tibits..i bought hello panda choc,sweets n choki choc..i knew my frens love it n so i distribute it to them..fun n glad to have them in my life...joseph as usual disturb me by smsing n calling..n now the disease is spread to sam n seri who called me alot of time...think funny is it?? lol...is used to it so i dun mind..

After school,joscelin went with us as she dun wanna go home alone and so we chill at cafe 1 as usual..jojo's cuzin join us n they are like the clown n entertainer..jojo accidently poke a fork at joshua's nipple n the uniform got tiny hole...He was angry but treat it like a joke n wans to do the same to jojo..they went chasing around and i record it.will upload in facebook wen i got the time to..we was watching them and yeah having a great time laughing..me sam n joscelin went to get prata and followed by aizzul,syawal..i din see wat seri bought but i tink she had toast..lol..

We went home after that and i already miss my sayang...we had a little hide and seek with sam n it was super funny..enjoy it la..In the train we were all making a whole lot of noise laughing our hearts out..i love them all for making me smile n be cheerful everyday..hehe..tmr,we r going to eat at zam zam at bugis n spent our time at esplanade...its the last thursday before fasting come and yeah..cant wait to laugh and hve fun with them tmr..farah have been sick for two days n miss her already..especially syawal..lol

Gonna do housechores tmr n before i leave home,everything should be settled..hmm,updating a little bit about my relationship here..This week have been a good one..we are going on strong here n i do hope it will forever be..loving u is a must for me and i dun wish to see u sad as i wanna put some light in ur life..am very fortunate to have u n i do hope it will be till death that aparts us both..i love u so much sweetheart n its getting stronger each day..

Believe in love everyone n have a great night.. :)

Lotsa <3,

SuFy.. :)

muackzzzzzzz...

updating my second day of the week-18 aug 09

2009-08-19T22:17:00.002+08:00

Second day of school..let me pick seri's n hubby's fav colour,GREEN...lol..kinda starting to like this colour tho..anyway,wat did i do on this very day...hmm...ya,got practical assignment 2 for IC n i freaking wake up late again!!! thank god i was not super late like the other time coz if i were to be late like tat time,den i'll be bankrupt..lol..anyway i get myself done up kinda fast...20mins oni..din wash hair,din put powder on but eyeliner n lipgloss i a must!!! lol..

Reach school and joseph start calling me as he is there alone..sayang was late too..sam n aizzul caught up in a traffic jam..lotsa people were late..the funny thing is that for those who starts at the 2nd shift,come so fast and tat include seri...haha...can sleep longer dun wan..haiyo...hmm,the test was easy bur the functional grp me n my grp forgot la so joseph did something that he should'nt be doing..lets keep tt as a secret..hehe..we took 1 hr 30 mins before everything is done..

Since seri is the only one in the second shift besides sofis who din turn up,we waited for her to eat together with us..the guys were hungry and so they ate prata first to keep them away frm being hungry..After which i ate prata and the rest had western..i dun relly fancy western at cafe 1..hehe..anyway,my day in school was quite alright today..nothing interesting happen..so yeah..

My sayang is sick today..flu..i wanna spent as much time in schol with him but i do pity him when he is sick.therefore, we din not msg n talk all night as i wan him to have his rest n his sleep...miss him the whole night..i just wan him to be by my side all the time now..I guess i'll have to wait for 6 more years to be with him everyday..

till here everyone..have a great day ahead..

believe in love alright..

Lotsa <3,

SuFy.. :)

updating my 1st day of school..

2009-08-18T22:03:00.004+08:00

Let me start my monday with sam's favourite colour..Pink!! hehe..Monday we start off with IC lecture..alamak,organic chemistry early morning is not good for my brain..haha..its just hard to understand and i need more time to absorb...okay..after lecture,finally there is PE!! But the sad thing is i did not play as i nvr bring perfume n deodorant..haha..its not compulsory to play PE coz the mr chan is not there so ya..

Most of my classmate play street soccer..while some others play basketball..Since i got nothing to do,i went over to see them play nd did some recording..was fun seeing them having fun..sam had a hard time getting in n out of the court..but manage to in the end..seri played well n i see talent there..aizzul came back with more energy..joseph and firman was like the star player..sofia is cute as she's the smallest there..syawal as usual keep making noise like emcee like that reporting on everything..i was the tape recorder la eh..recording them having fun..love them alot...

After PE,we had our lunch n proceed to Mr sim's pract..since there is no more pract,we discuss on our tutorial and it was fast..we play card game n i won firman by using antibiotics to smash him down..tat goes the same for sam and her ehm2,jason..seri,joseph n aizzul were in the same team with agnes too and i din really knw wat is their score like...hehe..After pract,sam n seri accompanied me for my first interview with a modelling agency at clark quay..was nervous but it went well..i was offered to do advertisement but i decline as i just wanna do portfolio for bridal..

After which i went home and rest up and slept thru the night..i miss him alot n ya..just miss him..okay, i got nothing to say actually..hmm...hoping for the best fro our relationship...insyaAllah..i guess i'll end here..wanna sleep r..tired n sleepy..will write tmr nite about my day on 18 n 19 aug..

have a great day everyone...

lotsa <3,

SuFy.. :)

updating my last 2 days...

2009-08-16T15:09:00.002+08:00

Friday,oh my...what did i do on friday...lemme think..hmm,woke up at 8 and went to market with my beloved grandma..bought fish,vegetables and some other kitchen stuffs..was heavy but i manage to carry as im so use to carry heavy stuffs..Im trying my best here to learn,memorise and remember all the things we need in the kitchen..Am learning really slowly here..after sending my grandma home,i headed back home and do some cleaning..Fasting is coming and we need to clean the house up soon...my cuya went back home to pasir ris and i miss her already..aww..hmm...i guess thats just my day there.. :)

Saturday,hmm....Its my day out with my prince..we planned to go to parkway but we headed to east coast instead..we love hanging by the beach with the cold wind,talking about us and stuffs..Its great having him lying in my lap,having him close to my me and hugging him all night long..we had mac donald for a early dinner and after which we just spent time by the beach on top of a uhm,i dunnoe wats that called..hehe..we left by 9 and we was separated..i went to visit my dad and then went home meeting my brother along the way..reached home,change my clothes,wash up and went to bed and i din msg him goodnite as i was too sleepy..sorry there baby..i love u kay..miss u already here.. :)

will be writing again later at night..till here..

have a great day everyone..

lotsa <3,

SuFy.. :)

13-aug-09 : BORING!!!

2009-08-13T19:27:00.002+08:00

A super boring day today..my menses come at the most unexpected time..suppose to join my frens for a movie but due to the pain, i din go..im very sorry guys..im sure u guys will have fun and i miss u all already..

What should i talk about today..i wonder..there's nothing much happening today and the main topic is just about my menses..it destroys every plan i had..only after i had my coke then i feel better..spending my time at home with my cuya and we are having hindi movie marathon..watching kuch kuch hota hai..a love story between 3 frens..A story tat i can never forget tat touch my heart deeply..

Love is friendship..It all began with friendship to fall in love..But my love story comes from first sight..after first sight,i come closer to him..and closer den closer..till one day i get him all to myself..but definitely there's alot that we have gone thru before we were together..it'll remain as memories as i cannot forget about the things that happen..anyway,im happy with him now..and i hope we will forever be..

HerE are some quotes that i'll like to share with everyone..And this is what i feels..

As we grow older together, As we continue to change with age, There is one thing that will never change...I will always keep falling in love with you..

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU... The one who turns to his friends and says, thats her...

The couple that fights the most is the one most in love... it shows they care enough to notice the other one screwed up and care enough to mention it to the person so they can fix it. When you stop fighting it means you stopped caring.

I wanna be a happy person and i hope to get a better life ahead of me with u by my side..

Believe in love as much as i believe in it..

Have a great day everyone..no school tmr and its bad as i miss all of my frens..especially him..

Lotsa <3,

SuFy.. :)

2 months anniversary!!!

2009-08-11T21:34:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 2 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY TO ME AND MY DEAREST HUBBY!! Was really looking forward for today as it is a double treat for me and sayang..firstly is i will get to meet him after 4 days of separation and also,its our 2 months together..so happy..but...okay,here is how my day goes...............

I slept at 3am ysterday as i find it hard to sleep and i decided to do something small for my dear2..and so i woke up at 7am..kinda late for school already..my cuz is in the bathroom and for sure she'll sleep while bathing..i wonder how can she sleep with water surrounding her..lol..both were late and so we took cab together..I sent to her workplace at ayer rajah cres starhub building..we took the cab at 7.57 but the traffic sucks big time and she was late..I was almost late but the traffic got better..its prat assignment today which was why i took cab..normally i would just be late..haha...and its freaking EXPENSIVE!!! I lost my 46.50 on that and its my one week's expenses..haiz....broke already...

Anyway,the pract assignment went extremely well..My grp was joseph,nisa,cordelia..was fun working with them..heheh..we had long break today..after our assignment at 10,we sat at the cafe till 1 before heading for lecture..I went to laminate my small piece of art for my dear and he loves it..i love it too..its done from the heart..lecture was kinda short and pract was super short and so we end at 4 instead of 6..yippee...spent more time with my sayang.. :)

Took picture with him and i just love him so much..It may oni been two months of us getting together but i felt that we both knw each other tat long..I dunnoe why i love him and i will never wanna know cause wen we knew why we love that someone,that is the moment that we dun love them anymore..I wish to have my life spent with him and loving him is the main priority in my life..seeing him happy makes my life happier..Im watching anugerah 2009 alone here..how sad...rooting for sarah aqilah,the next big thing in the music industry and im sure she'll make singapore proud..go sarah!!!!

Tmr sch starts at 3 and ends at 5...so pathetic..very relaxing week..going lunch with my hyper frens and miss them already..

got to go for now..have a fun day ahead..

Sayang,you have put a glow in my life now and its filled with colours and i hope i've make ur life happier..to all my chem tech frens that i loved especially seri,sam,fya,syawal,joseph,aizzul,ah pok,farah adn joscelin..

Lotsa <3,

SuFy.. :)

one of my student council fren just passed away ysterdy due to drowning at tioman island..Amelia Johnson,rest in peace my dear..the girl who never fails to smile..

9-aug-09 : HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!

2009-08-10T21:20:00.002+08:00

It's the nation's 44th birthday..I love watching fireworks..My hubby have already went to malaysia and it saddens me that he's not here to watch the fireworks at esplanade with me..For the first time ever, we din really exchange msg or talk like we noormally did for 3 days since fri..i miss him really bad now and im just counting down to tmr in sch..We did settle our problem and it is all left behind..He called me at 5 plus and i was super happy..Was shocked to hear his ringtone tho..he told me that the reception is still in singapore line which was why he could call..i love him so much n miss him alot..we chat for 7 mins and afterwhich.we said goodbye but will talk again later at night..

Anyways,i went to watch the fireworks with my bestest fren,dewi..we both wore yellow as we dun have ani red shirt..hehe..enjoyed my time with her but its just sad to know that she's busy working as i knw she loves school more..who does'nt right..we had our dinner at burger king adn then head off to the esplanade..it was super packed till the way to esplanade is close and so we watched the fireworks from the singapore river itself..The fireworks was kinda short and its not as happening as last year..After watching, we went home and i went to railway station to go home with my aunt..

A not tiring day today but i did have fun..

have a great night everyone..

lotsa <3,

SuFy.. :)

8-aug-09 : mood swing real bad..

2009-08-09T00:26:00.004+08:00

Yesterday,i waited for him till i slept in sadness and in tears..I was hoping that today would be my better day but it din turn out the way it should..I woke up this morning rather early and received his msg..He have his reason for not msging me the whole night..I understand..

He's busy today with his frens and again i waited..I din do much today..just waiting and waiting..I did my cousin's hair just nw and it kept me busy and allowing me not to think of him but i kept thinking..he's leaving for JB tmr..and will be back on mon night..i guess i just missed him alot till now, im having sore throat and i think im gonna be sick soon..well,i guess im tuning in now..tmr i'll be going out to celebrate singapore's 44th birthday with my best fren,dewi, maybe i can meet sam at one fullerton for awhile..miss them already but im missing him more!!!!!!!!!!!!

No appetite to eat and ive not eaten frm 11 am..im not torturing myself but i seriously got no mood today..Sorry if this post is not as long as the other..will write again tmr nite..attached is the picture of my cousin's hair that i took 2 hrs to do..and im lovin' it..

have a good day everyone..

lotsa <3,

SuFy.. :(

my day..

2009-08-07T20:16:00.003+08:00

Lecture starts at 10 and its miss joyce's lecture..im lovin it..hehe..luckily not mdm ruhaida's..lol..anyway, my day starts normal today..no lateness or 'kancong-ing'..was a very pleasant start..How i wish i could be like this everyday..having this calmness with me thruout my life..but in life,we cannot have dis with us always..hmm,we learnt about freezing point today..was a very short lecture and we end at ard 11..Its a mini celebration for our school..there is balloons and flags being distributed ard..

After lecture, we went to cafe 1 to have our meals..After which,we chat and chat and chat the whole time from 11 to 2.45..I did have fun in school today..sam,seri n firman was playing with the helium and was making us laugh with their voice after having helium in their throat..was very funny..Nothing happen much today and so im not writing much stuff..

3 days to go before i can meet my dear..he will be spending his time in JB frrom sun morning to mon night..its so great to have family outing like his..insyaAllah,i would like to have a happy family with him..A very happy one..Since ive nothing to talk about, i would like to talk about him n me..

Mohammad Firman Bin Adnan..the better half of me..my dearest hubby whom i've been loving each and everyday..Having to meet him is like my fantasy of meeting a prince charming becoming to reality..I labeled him as the perfect full package prince of mine..He is very responsible,very caring,very romantic and his smile just left me to melt all day..I love him too much already and i would reali wanna give my whole heart to him..With his maturity,i'm very confident that he can handle and attend to stuffs that will be coming in the near future..He understands me so very well and he is very patient when it comes to my attitude and behaviour..and i thank him for that..

Love is like a quicksand;the deeper you fall,the harder to get out..

Sayang,with me giving you my whole heart and soul, i do hope you won't bring me down..As i said,you are the rainbow in my life right now..I really hope for the best in our relationship and i do hope we can go very far..you are my strength and you are my ray of hope..I <3>

Till here everyone..have a good night and hope u guys will believe in love as much as i believe in it..attached is a picture of me n sayang taken recently..love him to the max..

Lotsa <3,

SuFy.. :)

Fun Day with my Peeps..

2009-08-06T23:02:00.003+08:00

A very long day today with my frens..Tiring but very fun and enjoyable..laughter here and there and it just make my day better..We start off by having our lunch at KFC at downtown east..But before that, i was late by half hour..The time to meet was 12.30 but i reach there at 1pm..really sorry guys..hehe..The people who went was me,firman(my darling),seri,sam,joseph,sofia,farah and syawal..all got their own couple be it girl guy or girl girl..lol...We had our lunch before headinf towards the bowling centre..I can't wait to bowl coz that is one of my favourite things to do besides cycling..

We had our first game first..everyone had a good start except for JOSEPH!! On his first try,he fell on the lane itself!! It was super funny la coz his head was down while his both legs went up..Till now as im typing,i still can recall how he fell..so damn funny..But a waste that we din record...haha...joseph,later we have encore can??? haha..I took their pictures and video that i will be uploading in facebook..the game was great but we waste time on repairing the lane..but it all happen at team A which consists of sammy,fya,seri n joseph..their lane also got problem..haiyo...lol..Team B was the couples of coz and amg both team,farah was outstanding winning the 2nd game with 2 strikes in a row and also wit the point of 224..wow...thats really amazing and it left the guys speechless.. :) good job farah, make the girls proud..lol..Joscelin came to visit us after watchng her hangover with her baby..and i took a picture with her,another sunshine in my life..she's a really good fren.. :)

After our second game, some of them went to have their smoke and we took some pictures..was really nice to see the bond btwn us as classmates..we were very close and i do hope the frenship remains forever..i love u all..fya,farah n syawal went back first..and is left with me,sayang,seri,sam n joseph..sam wants to find pants at penisula and so we had our long bus ride from pasir ris to city hall..The journey was like 1 hr plus and our butts hurts especially for sayang,seri n joseph coz their legs are long so it hurts lor...but we had fun riding it..n i love long bus rides..hehe... :)

Upon reaching,sam found her pants at this one shop and we get it in ard 20 mins..was kinda quick..Not knowing where to go next, we decided to chill at the esplanade and so we had our walk there..my favourite spot n of coz seri's and sam's favourite spot,one fullerton..haha..I had piggy back ride with my dear and i was heavy..imagine im 50 n he is just 68..He carried me all the way n wen we finally reach esplanade,he was exhausted i must say..We bught cup corns and drinks and sit by the river..the four of them played with poker cards and giving each other riddles..was very funny..

We head back to the mrt station by 7.45..While crossing the road, i guess my darling was dreaming and he din realised that there is a taxi turning over at the curb..all of us shouted his name and luckily i was holding his hand and i pulled him over..That was super close..I guess if he were to be knocked down,i would have fainted..sayang,dun make my heart beat that fast again k..i love u so much u know..We was separated at the mrt..my baby went to the east line,joseph,seri n sam went to the north line n i went to the west line..kinda sad to see this end but i had loads of fun with them..

I went to see my dad to collect my allowance and also went to took cigarettes for my brother..I went to see him and then went home at 9.30..Took 185 home and reach ard 10.15..I went to buy food for myself,cuya n radiah..was very tired..i had my food,wash up nd use the laptop..got lotsa pics n videos to upload..so i guess after dis i will turn in..had a fun time today n sure it will be kept as sweet memories..thanks guys..

have a great night..

Lotsa <3,

SuFy.. :)

5-aug-2009

2009-08-05T21:37:00.002+08:00

Starts school at 12 today and i decided to have early lunch with my frens..It did not turn out the way it should as oni me and seri went to have our lunch..Supposed to meet my sayang at 10.30 but i guess he overshot and he joined us at 11 when we were about to finish our meal..The both of us had nasi lemak and it was nice..We went off at 11.30 and met sam at the interchange..

Reach school just in time..We learn on density on solids today..was very dry practical..And we end 1 hour earlier..And so we went to have a bite at cafe 3..

Joseph finally came back to school..miss him alot..coz he will be disturbing me non stop..hehe..we had our food and head off to class..i din realised that my wallet was taken by joseph until later after school..Anyways, we had our lecture with mr tan and its kinda short..just 17 slides..haha..i was very sleepy and i din pay that much attention..lol..but its better to come to school and not just 'caboting' every time..i just dun understand why some ppl find it hard to come to school..haiz...

After school as usual we will chill at cafe 1..That is when realised that my wallet went missing and so i suspect it was joseph coz she was smiling all the way when i was searching for my wallet..Just wanna let ya knw, if u wanna take any of my stuffs,pls do so but not with my wallet as i will get very scared..lol...He gave it back wth the help of seri and i went to buy glue to paste my picture with my dear that i owe him for 3 days already..sorry k baby...hehe..I gave it to him and he likes it..it says : i love u,u are the rainbow of my life and so he replied,'if im the rainbow of ur life then u r the sun of my life..he is just too sweet n im loving him more each day..

We went home kinda early today and i bought doughnut for me and curry o for my cuya..I rest and now im using the laptop after not using it for a day..haha..Attached is a picture of joseph n sam,the couple..hehe..they are just too sweet just now at the cafe..love all my frens...

Got ntg much to say today and so im ending here...tmr going to bowl at pasir ris with them and i will write again tmr nite..cant wait....

Have a great night everyone..

Lotsa <3,

SuFy.. :)

3-Aug-09.. Bad Day today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-08-04T00:47:00.002+08:00

Woke up feeling great and was looking forward for the start of school..I iron all my clothes and was getting ready to bath when suddenly i saw this BIG FLYING COCKROACH behind the mirror while i was brushing my teeth..I hate cockroaches and i freak out..without hesitation,i cover myself with my towel and dash out of the toilet with the toothbrush still in my mouth..I woke my cousin up in the hope of asking her to get rid of the insect..Not knowing to me, she was scared of it too..and so i delayed till 7.20 and i knew i was late for school so therefore i ignore it and bath a quick one..
I apply baby johnson's powder to smoothen my skin and so i rush to get my face done with sunblock cream and powder with eye liner..the basic stuff of mine..I went out of the house by 8.05 and i was super late..I msg sam and told her to get the notes for me..I forgot that the notes is in my locker and so upon reaching school at 9.30 which is half an hour late, my class has no notes and mr tan was angry but not so at me but much to my sayang..feel bad for him..now that was the start of my day..real bad..
As usual PE was cancelled and we have 4 hours of break time..We had our lunch at mr teh tarik at tampines..I had mee siam and ice tea tarik..The mee siam turns out weird but i just ate it as i was super hungry..After which we hang around at this place i dunoe how to describe it..My tummy hurts and i felt like vomitting..But i went with the flow and join my frens..Syawal and aizzul bought those bombs that kids usually play with..They intend to use it on sam but luckily her eyes is sharp enough to have seen it first..They do had alot of time disturbing her but the thing that is special about sam is that she do not care so much and just have fun..I just love my dis grp of outgoing frens.. :)
My sayang and sam had a one on one battle in dancing with the help of the songs from sofia's hp..I did video it but i will upload it in facebook..hehe..Sam sure can dance but im just curious why can she dance non stop and she find it difficult to climb the stairs to cross the bridge..hmm...
We head back to school taking bus 15 followed by 31..My tummy starts to ache so badly that i needed the toilet sooooooooooooo badly..The bus was so long that i starts to perspire and we waited for 20 to 25 mins..Finally the bus came and it did went kinda fast..was relief bout that tho..I wore my lanyard in the bus and quickly dash out of the bus and i told my darling to help me take my stuffs..I went o the toilet and let 'em all out!!!!!!!!!!! Phew!!!!!!!!!!
Went to class at 2.30..we did some stuffs on alcohol..I was the only one in my group and so i joined helmi's grp..helmi whom i regard him as my own brother did something that make him traumatised..While he was wearing his goggles,he was holing a opened testube together with it and so it fell to his labcoat and he freak out..he quickly takes off his labcoat and change to his PE attire..His face is really pale and me n my sayang went to console him to make him feel better..We just advise him to take care in the near future..luckily nothing bad happens..I had my early dinner with sam seri n sayang and head home after that..
Sam was so happy that her sister is driving that she dance in her seat while in the train till the nurses told me and syawal that she is realli cute and is like the entertainer of the grp which is so true..
Reached home,wash up and talk to my aunt and now after blog, i will have to retrace some drawings..have a late night today..
have a great night everyone...
Lotsa <3,
SuFy.. :)
take care okay... muackx...

2-Aug-09

2009-08-04T00:30:00.003+08:00

Today i went out with my bestest girlfriend whom have been accompanying me with my ups and downs thruout my 2 yrs of life in Ite nitec in AFS..Spent the whole day with her at marina,suntec..I went out at 2.30 and met dewi at city hall..We had our late lunch at KFC and it shocked me to have see her eat that much..But i was happy to see her after a long time nt spending time with her..

Without knowing what to do next,we decided to catch a movie..titled 'jgn pandang belakang congkak'..was a funny instead of a scary movie..oh how i love scary movies.. :).. After that we spent time at the fountain and we recall our times..I do miss her..We went home and i still miss her..I guess we were too close and its hard when we Are apart..Will be meeting her again soon..

Lotsa <3,

SuFy.. :)

1-Aug-2009

2009-08-03T23:16:00.002+08:00

Sorry for not updating you guys for like three days straight..Had a hectic weekend i must say..well here it goes..
Saturday arrive..woke up feeling fresh and couldnt wait for my date with my darling..As usual, i will never bath that quick on a weekend and so my timing to bath is when im getting ready to go out..hehe..I wash my face and brush my teeth and just sit and relax at the sofa..I did help my aunt but mainly is she doing the housework..I help her whenever needed..
Since i have nothing to do, I was waiting for my dear to msg me or give me a call regarding our date..But to no avail..He was attending a malay function and since he was rushing for it,i understand completely..I waited patiently for his msg..From 12 till 5..Scare if he would msg me out of a sudden,i went to have a nice bath at around 4 and finally at 5 plus he call me and i rush to have myself done up..Was so happy to finally get to hear his romantic voice.. :)
I wore jeans with off shoulder black top..My aunt love the way i wear it so much but im getting use to it as my fashion sense is just wearing tights with dresses or some tops that just cover my butt..hehe..Guess i have to change my style den..definitely with the help of my baby..love him to the core.. muacks..
I went out of the house at 6.45 and met him at outram park before heading towards harbour front..I feel happy about myself cause for the first time he was speechless on what i was wearing..Im contented..We went to have our dinner at banquet vivo..He had seafood hor fun and I had yong tau fu..I just could not find myself an answer for not accepting his offer when he wants to pay for my meals..I mean,he is not working and I feel bad when he pays for it and so I just tell him to treat me to drinks..We had our dinner and it went well..My blouse was falling way over my shoulder and it was really sweet of him to pull it way up..I told him that my skin is smooth which was why it fell..His intention was very good but the way I react was kinda rude..I just have to change that attitude of mine..Really hope he could give me time to have this change..
After dinner upon leaving banquet,he notice a gay watching over him at the side and he was too 'Gabra' that his drink fell and luckily i stood up first so as to avoid spillage from seeping into my clothes..He went to have his smoke and after which we went to hang around at the top of vivo and had our times together..I feel great having him lying on my lap,to see his smile,his shining teeth(im proud of that cause normally for a smoker,their teeth tends to be yellowish)..Wen spent our time up till 11 before making a move..
Upon separating at tanjong pagar(i went there to board the train as at outram its filled with alot of people),gave him the usual kiss on the cheek and we was separated..was so sad as i missed him alot..But the both of us have to be strong..I love him so damn lots..I got home,wash up,and get ready for bed.. tiring but enjoyable day..
Lotsa <3,
SuFy.. :)
PS :sorry no picture as im so freaking shy to ask.. :(

short day in school..

2009-07-31T22:54:00.004+08:00

School starts at 10am..went to school with my sayang..met him at 9.30 at tampines interchange..so happy to have meet him after a day apart..miss him terribly..Its mdm ruhaida's lecture again..so damn boring..we could end at 10.45 if only she didn't drag the lecture..When miss joyce and ms lim teach us, we cld end latest by 11 and i could spent more time with my sayang but end up we end late..We had our lunch till 1.30 till my sayang gt to go for friday prayers..oh my God how i miss him so much!! But luckily i spent my time with Sam and Seri..

We went to orchard TANGS to accompany Seri for her job interview..Sam and I went to wait for her at lucky plaza's mac donald..Seri was late for her interview all thanks to us playing UNO in school previously...hehe...Sam and I had shaker fries and drinks..we chat together and she jus could not stop to make me laugh..Not long,Seri came and told us that she probably will get the job..we was happy for her as her schedule for every friday will be at 6 to 11...At least we could spent some time with her b4 she go to work..The bond btwn the 3 of us is tight n i hope we could last as BFF!! love them alot... :)

After letting seri to rest, we went to ION!! was indeed my first time going there as it just opened..was freaking nice and there is alot of shop for us to buy stuffs..One shop that really caught my eye is SEPHORA..all types of perfume is there from the letter 'a' to 'z'.. OMG!!! haha... i saw my secondary fren, dominic and how different he is from the last time i saw him..I guess people do change but not me I guess..lol..We went ard aimlessly just looking around for things that we may not need at the moment..Was tiring but fun with all their jokes..Seri had sardine 'o' from OCK and also Hot Fudge from mac donald..Sam had her favourite subway cookie and whenever they ask me if i want ornt, my answer will be : nope,thank you.. Guess they are irritated by that till they know wat my answer will be like wenever they ask me to try watever food that they eat...hehe..

After a long walk(from 5 to 7), we went to rest at the 7 eleven..Sam bought big gulp but the cup was leaking and she told seri to change for her..She also bought a snack that i dunnoe hw to describe but that was my childhood favourite snack and so for the first time, i told them : can i have that and they were happy that finally i accepted wat they eat..hehe..we hang ard for awhile before heading towards the mrt stn..But b4 that, Sam needed the toilet and so we went to the nearest toilet which is at tangs and it was super crowded especially at the SK II corner..should be having some sort of promotion i guess..After that we went straight towards the mrt station..was super crowded..but we manage to squeeze thru.. :)

Seri got to go first and therefore she did not bounch back with us..For the first time ever, Sam did not smoke and spent her money on food..thank god...I rather she sacrifice her cigarettes for food..Anyways,i alight at raffles and went back to boon lay leaving Sam alone in the train towards woodlands...Got home at 8.45 as i went to wash my picture that i took with my sayang..I am tired and wanna rest n have a early nite after i blog..

I have a date tmr with sayang and we r not so sure where to go to but i definetly look forward for that date...Finally a proper date with him..hehe..i already prepare for him a card..Short msg but is sweet and come from my heart..Till now, im waiting for his msg..Sad to know if when finally he msg, i will be going to bed bt im trying to understd his situation..he needed rest after a day with his grp of chaotic percussion grp..But i just miss him sooooooo much...

Till here everyone..

Have a great nite..( Attach is a picture of my bestest girlfriends,seri and sam,after our relaxing at 7 eleven )

Lotsa <3,

SuFy.. :)

The light of my life..

2009-07-30T14:29:00.010+08:00

Joscelin n me..

my only sweetheart that's in my heart..

syawal

Sofia

Sam sayang..

Seri Hidayu

Aizzul..

joseph and pok cheun..

These are my frens that never fails to make me smile all week!!!

love u guys alot n i appreciate everything that u guys did to fill my day..

muackx........ :p

half of my day

2009-07-30T13:15:00.006+08:00

Woke up at 11 today..feeling so fresh as yesterday i sleep kinda peacefully..wash my face and brush my teeth and since there's no school today, i bath a little late in the afternoon..hehe(my bad habit)..yesterday was fun in school but upon reachimg home, my cousin bring the laptop out and i din get a chance to do what i normally do..but its okay coz thr will always be a tmr.. :)

A new day today n it starts with sadness n tears..silly me to have to do such a thing that will not cause happiness but just sadness..dis thing is kinda private n so im not writing it down here..i just think that i will have to deal with this one way or another..

It hurts the most for me to be crying out of a sudden for things that i cannot control..I just wanna be a happy person after all the sufferings i had to go through throughout my life..Knowing you,you have made me happier than ever..With my new frens ard me, you guys are the sun in my life with all ur laughters,ur jokes and ur understanding towards me..Seri,Sam,Sofia,Joseph,Aizzul,Syawal,Farah,Pok Chuen,Joscelin..this few ppl are the one tat always put a smile on my face every single day..im so blessed to have them in my life and i feel even happier with my one and only sweetheart,Md Firman Adnan..
That a picture of firman,me,sofia,seri and syawal..love them all..

Got to go for now..will write in more later at night..

Have a great day everyone..

Lotsa <3,

SuFy.. :)

Tiring day today...

2009-07-28T23:22:00.001+08:00

A tiring day today..in school we did an experiment using hexane and acetone..was fun doing the experiment and i saw reaction occuring thruout the process..we did use concentrated sulphuric acis and mr tan, our lecturer demo for us using tissue paper n its was burning..kinda cool tho..hehe...but mr tan was so serious today that the class went blank and kept quiet..
We end our practical kinda early and we went to eat at cafe 1..My dear was late today n so he met us for lunch..we ate and laugh thruout..all thanks to sam..she is the light of our class as she makes us laugh with her laughter, with her cuteness and i just cannot find a reason why i adore her..I love u Sam... :)
Today's lecture is mdm ruhaida's..its so freaking boring..she teach,i can really doze off..we learn about physical and chemical properties..can understand this topic but do need to absorb it lor..After lecture we went to have a bite at cafe 3 and we had fried kway teow..was nice n very cheap..sam,joseph n sofia went to smoke n so we met them in class..we was late!!! but miss joyce relax oni..hehehe..for AC practical we did sieve shaker and it was kinda short...besides that, we need to do tutorial on calculation...i got help from my lil bro helmi...was easy wen there is ppl to coach me..we end pract at 5.30..
I got to rush cause my younger bro was caught with a fever..n so we did not 'lepak' tat long and left school at 6..B4 tat, something happenned!! Sam bought ice cream and she was walking with firman when suddenly,the ice cream toppled over n fell off the ground..i din really notice what happen but i think firman wans to have a bite of the ice cream when it fells and so he have to buy for her another ice cream and he take the cone..Not only that, this happen to sofia and aizzul too..sofia was eating toast when aizzul went to push her back n 2 toast n it fell n so aizzul went to buy her a new set..was kinda funny till joseph went to buy ice cream using cup and not cone..i guess he dun wanna history to repeat..hehe...they went to smoke and we went back home..
As usual i miss my sayang alot and we hugged all the way in the bus..my heart hut to see him go but i will havr to control my feeling..i gave him a kiss and he was hoping that it could last till tmr..hehe...in the bus was chaotic with sam's laughter and we were enjoying ourselves...firman and aizzul went down first and the rest stop at the interchange..joseph took 969 and left with the girls,me,seri,sofia and sam..we bounce back as usual and chat all the way..
I alight at buona vista to visit my brother who was caught with a fever..gave him his medicine and ask him to rest while i watch anugerah..sarah,hydir n wawan was the best...love u guys...i reached home at 11 and was super tired but after a nice bath, i was fresh again..its close to 1 o'clock now and i wanna have a bite b4 i wanna sleep and luckily tmr school starts late..haha..till here then...
have a good night everyone..takecare and smile always..
i miss u sayang...
i love u sooo much...
lotsa <3,
SuFy.. :)

first day of the week...

2009-07-27T22:55:00.003+08:00

woke up late today..7.30!! OMG!! have not iron my clothes n so i just bath for 10 mins....lol...brushing teeth n washing face is most important tho...after bathing i zoom in to prepare myself fer sch..the hse was rather quiet..i went out at 8 and run fer the bus..luckily it did not stop at most of the bustop..i was walking so fast that i was panting wen i reached the mrt at 8.15..hehe...luckily there is some seat to sit...

upon reaching sch, i told seri to help me take notes as sam n firman is late...thx seri, my sister lurp..lol..wen i enter the lecture theatre, the class have not yet start and im just waiting fer my dear to reach..the lecture was torturing..all this organic stuffs is killing me...hve to absorb it slowly i guess..

The weather is kinda gloomy today...not much sun and our PE was cancelled..we hang out in cafe 2 while waiting for phase test to start...

My hands was shaking all the way thruout the test...not sure if i did well but its a pass for sure...titration is easy but wen we r doing it alone, its kinda scary u knw..well after that i spent time with my hubby, sam n seri..the same old member of the grp who always stays..i can really feel the bond we had between the 4 of us..hope to be BFF.. :)

Left sch at 6 and i reach hm at 8 as i went to meet my dad at jurong east interchange..i had my bath and my meal n after which we had 11 ppl chatting at the same conversation in msn..was very chaotic i must say...but fun tho...love my classmates... :)

Well, i did spent some quality time with my hubby..miss him a whole lot too..Im trying to be more open with him..i still can't figure out why can't i not talk to him openly abt stuffs..i am open abt stuffs but wen it come to sharing with my dear, im not tat comfortable yet..i do trust him but maybe im just not ready to be open with him as we are still new to each other(4 mths in sch oni mah)..i will give myself time up till after fasting mth and i hope everything will change for the better...i have been loving him with all my heart and soul n being apart with him is the last ever thing i wanna do..

Till here then..goodnght everyone..

lotsa <3,

SuFy.. :)

QUOTE FOR THE DAY : Live your life to the fullest for tomorrow may not come..

busy day today..

2009-07-26T21:08:00.004+08:00

Woke up at 9.30 this morning to get ready to bring my grandma out at jurong point..unfortunately,she was caught with a fever and is too weak to get out of the house and so i went to her house instead..I bought for her some stuffs for her kitchen and i had chicken rice for lunch..was not thatnice as the rice is kinda moist..we talk and after 4 hours, i went back home..

Upon reaching home, i did nothing but just resting..my cousins are all getting ready to go out and there i am all alone with my aunt and uncle..Then, i just remembered that i was supposed to buy fruits for my grandma(this fruit season is killing me with all the juicy and sweet fruits all around)..And so i went to buy rambutan and longan for her..My favourite aunt,Cuya,gave me a ride to my grandma's house by lorry with her boyfriend..And so i send her the fruits and just sat for 15 minutes and after which i went home..

The fruits are so sweet that i went to buy it for myself..I too went to buy fab and softlan for washing of clothes..I reward myself with kit kat(i loved it) and lolipop!! hehe..Went home and start washing,doing my facebook..uploading photos and i tried to play mafia wars which is the talk of the town right now..Its kinda boring and i still prefer my farm town which i have not been updating for a few weeks now..too busy with school...

I missed the match between liverpool and singapore..I am a fan of liverpool but i'm just not seeing their matches or reading about them..I used to watch with my dad(the best dad in the world) and now not having him around makes me not watching the matches..hmm,but im gonna watch my favourite movie,FANTASTIC FOUR later at 10..i love the human torch..he's so cute!!! It will end at 12 and i guess i'll just tune to bed after that.. What a day i must say but with all the time spent, one thing i kept thinking is my hubby!!! He's out helping frens to move furniture and i miss him a whole lot today..Thats a picture of my dear and also my wallpaper for my phone that i kept looking throughout my whole day today!! Still owe him a massive hug though and im just waiting for the right time to do so..

Well, goodbye for now..will write in again..have a great night everyone..

lotsa <3,

SuFy... :)

just created my account

2009-07-25T19:35:00.000+08:00

Feeling rather bored so i thought of creating a account to blog..
I feel that this is a way to express what we have been going through the whole day..Be it at school,at work or just chilling out with our loved ones..
Thinking of blogging is like so fun as i have been keeping everything to myself..
Its time to let it out..
So people, do share your thoughts and opinions about my stuffs ok..
Appreciate it..

Lotsa <3,
SuFy.. :)